Not that a single one of us are old-
but we have this to look forward
to!!
I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful
life, my loving family for less gray hair or a flatter belly.
As I've
aged, I've become kinder to myself, and less critical of myself. I've
become my own friend.
I don't chide myself for eating that extra
cookie, or for not making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko
that I didn't need, but looks so avante garde on my patio.
I am entitled
to a treat, to be messy, to be extravagant.
I have seen too many dear
friends leave this world too soon; before they understood the great
freedom that comes with aging.
Whose business is it if I choose
to read or play on the computer until 4 AM and sleep until noon?
I will
dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 60 &70's, and if
I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost love .. I will.
I will
walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body, and
will dive into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite the
pitying glances from the jet set.....
They, too, will get
old.
I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of life is
just as well forgotten. And I eventually remember the important
things.
Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How can
your heart not break when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers,
or even when somebody's beloved pet gets hit by a car?
are what give us strength and understanding and compassion.
A heart
never broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of
being imperfect.
I am so blessed to have lived long
enough to have my hair turning gray, and to have my youthful laughs be
forever etched into deep grooves on my face. So many
have never laughed, and so many have died before their hair could turn
silver.
less about what other people think. I don't question myself anymore..
I've even earned the right to be wrong.
In fact I like being old. It has set me free. I like the person I have
become. I am not going to live forever, but while I am still here, I
will not waste time lamenting what could have been, or worrying about
what will be. And I shall eat dessert every single day (if I feel like
it).
ESPECIALLY WHEN IT'S
STRAIGHT FROM THE HEART!
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